I have discovered my love for making collages! Unfortunately all of the ones I do are much to big to put on my scanner and my computer wont take good quality pictures of them . . . actually any picture of them wont give you the full emotion or depth of a collage. They are more of something you have to see in person to gain the full understanding of. Anyways! The part I love most is that you can combine all types of mediums in it! Paint, water colour, crayons, marker, magazines, newspaper, pen, pencil, photographs, even rubber cement (makes water colour paints shiny)! You can write on them, you can professionally draw something and smear it in paint, or you could just smear paint! It's also a bit of mindless work. You can just let your brain go and do what ever! I guess collage-ing is a bit of a lower aspect in art since basically any one can do it, unless you are OCD, or maybe you just can't let you mind loose. I know a few of those people but they usually let themselves be expressed differently witch is okay by me! Another great thing about collage-ing is that you can really see your subconscious come out. Things you didn't even know bothered you will come seeping out, rather scary when it does that. Sometimes when I collage, it's like I'm lost in my thoughts. Exploring the hidden corners of my mind and then I wake up and I'll see the raw emotion before me and my conscious mind will want to correct it. So I'll place a seemingly harmless photograph or a scrap of paper with a lie written on it to be seen as a certain curtain that you have to look behind to really see the mess that is rupturing behind it, kind of like my closet when I "clean" my room. The outside comfortably clean but on the inside a monster pile of clothes and other junk is looming just waiting untill it's full enough that it can break down the door and come spewing out. Nobody is brave enough to look inside my closet when it's like that. Nobody but me that is (sometimes). Collage's are like a window into yourself, a self that you didn't even know existed, or maybe you did and the collage just enhanced upon it. Bringing that self to a level that is equal with who you think you are. Not saying that none of us are ourselves or that we don't know who we are. It's just that we all strive to be happy seeming people because nobody is willing to be friends with someone who is dark and dreary all the time and in so doing, we somehow bury a part of our selves and thus creating an alternant personality that you'll revert to when something drastic happens. On the rare occasion though you find the people who are more in-tuned with those other personalities and they will change them in a cycle seeming as though they are crazy, or perhaps they just don't know witch to use at what points or maybe they too have lost themselves. . . oookkaayyy well that was a really odd journal entry! From collages to the complexities of the human mind . . . I am apparently a very deep thinker . . . or maybe I just think too much.

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